Now, now…
Watch what you wish for love
My heart is a wildfire
And you could very well choke, choke
On it’s smoke, smoke
Before you even touch the flames

Don’t say I didn’t warn you when
I’m making angles in your ashes
The wetness in your dreams
While the wetness in your lashes
I’m a toxin spreading hell in your veins

Baby when I go crazy
I go crazy with flair
I can turn any semi-good feeling
Into great despair

Maybe a martyr
More likely a moment
Of poor judgment and even poorer mistakes
Black in, then black back out
I’m gonna teach you
Teach you all about
Headaches and heartaches

Yeah, they say that diehard romantics like me
Are disasters of a different breed

Forgive me if I sound
A little bit strange right now
You’re just nothing like all the others
In a sea of what’s been
Mostly misery
These are uncharted waters

I’m not used to feeling like this
It happens every time we kiss
Paralysis takes over and I just let it
And that’s something I never ever expected
Because…

My walls were mountains that no one could climb
But you did the impossible and changed my mind
Maybe this time love is a mistake worth making
Either way, my heart is yours for the taking

So often my head is racing
You’ve even got me questioning
The world around me that I know
My weakness are surfacing
I gotta say it’s surprising
My defenses haven’t taken control

I’m not used to feeling like this
It happens every time we kiss
All the armor gets stripped away
By something I can’t even explain

My walls were mountains that no one could climb
But you did the impossible and changed my mind
Maybe this time love is a mistake worth making
Either way, my heart is yours for the taking

I know that I seem restless
I swear I’m not always this reckless
I’m usually quite collected
Well at least, I used to be
But darling, you’ve completely changed me

You did the impossible…

Like a timebomb’s tic, we are the sign that something bad is
Slowly counting down
This is a toxic mix of what can make a chest ache
And what can make one pound

Drain dry that watered eye
But baby it’s all over
It’s all over spilled milk
I am no butterfly
This caterpillar was never capable
Of spinning silk

Some hearts they just grow destructive like tornadoes
Some hearts, they just grow dormant like volcanoes…

If you think the truth is the worst thing I can do
Just wait till you see how lonely, how lonely I can make you

Baby, memories work just like tragedies
They only get more bitter, the more they are retold
I’ll be that one salted-in story in your pillow
Where not everything that glitters is always gold

I can be pretty romantic when I have an open sky
But also quite hopeless
When looking for stars I’ve always found a burning bridge
Is far easier to notice

I will make you feel alive
Then leave you dying
Dying to forget
Cuz the only fashionable kind
Of scar
Is the one worn on a wrist

Carry me around your neck in a heart shaped locket
I’ll drag you down into the dirt
Like putting pennies in a light socket
You learn best when you get hurt…

The person I am now
Is not the person I was then
For two years, three months
And twenty two days I’ve been
Picking up the pieces
And learning to walk again

It hasn’t been easy, I won’t say
There haven’t been times I’ve missed the way
That you made me feel
In the beginning, I swore I was convinced
The wounds would never heal

Because for a very long time
You were the drug in my life
But those days are over
And now that I’m finally sober
I can see just how unhealthy it was
To think that what you and I had was love…

Underneath it all
My weaknesses still rely on you
Just not in the same way
That they always used to
As my heart now has the strength
To find its own way through

When faced with me at my worst
Even I thought at first
That you’d end up being right
But as it turns out, I can live without
You and still survive

For a very long time
You were the drug in my life
But those days are over
And now that I’m finally sober
I can see just how unhealthy it was
To think that what you and I had was love…

By my own crippling grief
I lived with this false believe
That you were stronger than me
And I’d never win this war
But here I am, totally clean
And it would seem
That I don’t need you anymore

The person I am now
Is not the person I was then…

For a very long time
You were the drug in my life
But those days are over
And now that I’m finally sober
I can see just how unhealthy it was
To think that what you and I had was love…

It’s over,
I’m finally sober
It’s over,
I’m finally sober
It’s over,
I’m finally…

yeah… my nerdo meter just keeps on climbing

I am a wild cat by design
And just like old wine
This heart of mine
Has reached it’s vintage age
The world claimed to tame me
But this lion he
He just grew used to the cage

The advances are always pretty one sided, but still
Me and disaster continue to flirt
Blue eyes, grey skies
It’s raining razor blade confetti
Oh baby get ready,
Here comes the hurt

Oh no, not again
Rumplestiltskin spin
My misery into gold
Always the one that’s missing
And never the one missed
Whenever it’s cold

I find all the salts and comforts of a kiss
In the teardrops on my lips
They say only the most hopeless of romantics
Could dream up loneliness like this

I want to erase
The smile on your face
And feel your heart race
Into it’s inevitable crash
Watch it go up on flames
Watch the pain, the pain rain
Down, down, down your eyelash

Cuz when it’s all said and done I just want to
Feel at home in my own skin
From somewhere black
Something slipped through the cracks
And a stranger moved in

So let’s start fires to fill the void
So let’s leave something beautiful destroyed

Once a boy
Who played with matches
On bridges,
I am now
A man made of scars
And burns…

Felt the world slip
By a mere fingertip
It hurts to let go…
But in time
Heartbeats will
Become only echos…

I am a pill, made to fill
And clog up your arteries
With miseries
So baby weep, weep, weep
And keep, keep, keep
Swallowing me

Conceived and born
In a thunderstorm
The rain clouds will never stop
They will never stop
Following me

I was once the arc angel
Of all the things could make your lips pout
But the world lifted me by the ankles
And shook all the goodness out

So lace up the laces on your lynching hoods
Grab your pitchforks and your torches
A monster that’s been misunderstood
Leaves dead flowers on your front porches

Oh oh and just like
Just like some kind of Frankenstein
I’m a cluster of dead parts
Magically brought to life

Wrap this chest in a kevlar vest
Not to keep things out, but in
Inside of my skin
And my ink acts like a head shrink
Every now and then

I’ve got troubles
On top of troubles
On top of more troubles
Oh Doc, where do I begin?

So I, I heard the news
He left you broken and bruised
Ain’t that exactly what you did to me?
Well ain’t that just sweet sweet irony

I thought he was mister perfect,
Wasn’t that why he was worth it?
Wasn’t that why I was pushed aside like I meant nothing at all?
Guess mister perfect wasn’t so perfect after all

Remember when you showed up at my door with your knees on the ground?
Remember how not too long ago it was the other way around?
Remember how you just stood there and laughed as the tears fell down?
Well ha-ha heartbreaker, who’s laughing now?

Funny how you tossed me like trash
Funny you’d come crawling back
When I needed a shoulder you were colder than ice
So if you think you’ll be getting my sympathy think twice

Remember when you showed up at my door with your knees on the ground?
Remember how not too long ago it was the other way around?
Remember how you just stood there and laughed as the tears fell down?
Well ha-ha heartbreaker, who’s laughing now?

And oh baby when you look back
On everything you had
And it hurts so much
That the thought of us
Makes you cringe
You’ll know that love always gets it’s revenge

Remember when you showed up at my door with your knees on the ground?
Remember how not too long ago it was the other way around?
Remember how you just stood there and laughed as the tears fell down?
Well ha-ha heartbreaker, who’s laughing now?

Ha-ha heartbreaker, who’s laughing now?
Ha-ha heartbreaker, who’s laughing now?
Ha-ha heartbreaker, who’s laughing now?
Ha-ha heartbreaker, who’s laughing now?